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fiat_knoxIt hurts.
I lost my brother on the 24th. Only three weeks have gone by since that day. Only three weeks. They feel like a lifetime.
Some days, I find myself thinking "Wonder what Sean would make of that?" with some amusement. And then it hits me, so hard.
He's dead. He's really, really dead. I will never see him alive again.
We may not have been on speaking terms much, Sean and I. We moved in different circles, and he was a messy bugger. We did have some issues. Make no bones.
But he's now just ashes in a fucking bottle now, and I'll have to collect him up and bring him home with me and look after him and he'll never speak to me again, and it hurts.
It hurts, so much.
I lost my brother on the 24th. Only three weeks have gone by since that day. Only three weeks. They feel like a lifetime.
Some days, I find myself thinking "Wonder what Sean would make of that?" with some amusement. And then it hits me, so hard.
He's dead. He's really, really dead. I will never see him alive again.
We may not have been on speaking terms much, Sean and I. We moved in different circles, and he was a messy bugger. We did have some issues. Make no bones.
But he's now just ashes in a fucking bottle now, and I'll have to collect him up and bring him home with me and look after him and he'll never speak to me again, and it hurts.
It hurts, so much.
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Date: 2011-02-15 05:27 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-02-15 05:32 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-02-22 03:51 am (UTC)In the meantime, you are in your full right to mourn your loss.
Peace be upon you, and yours.
Gravity Well
Date: 2011-02-26 10:29 am (UTC)It's a long climb up the gravity well, but we'll make it. Thank you.