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fiat_knoxSome days, I can't seem to move, or speak, or even think without pissing off someone. But up until this point, I have never considered thinking of locking down this blog to friends only.
When I write something, this is how I feel inside about the thing I am writing about. If someone is behaving like a dick, I tell people on my blog that such-and-such is behaving like a dick. If I believe that a whole country full of people are behaving like dicks, I state this and all.
Actually, there are days when I think to myself "To blazes with evolution. Fuck the whole damned human species to extinction!" - and those are the days that I get trolled by people who seem to take it personally that I just wished that all their dreams should come undone.
But I have never been afraid to put something up on my blog for fear that it would cost me my f'list. Otherwise, I'd have nothing to say - and my f'list would just dissolve anyway.
I have a friends only filter on my blog. In fact, I have several different filters, for various circles. For a year, I can't recall actually writing anything on or in any of those filters. Everything that I have written has been out here in the open for all of you to see. And I mean all of you. Not necessarily because I want you all to see it, but sometimes because I want myself to remember it later on.
I'm sorry if some of the words I have said in my previous post have pissed some of you off, and I would be really sorry if you unfriended me as a result. But you'll note that the very worst things you have said to me, the harshest criticisms, I have left on my blog for me to come back to, when I get too full of myself.
I don't shy away from my own words. Or those of others. I'm only trying to figure out where I put a foot wrong, so I can refine my dance steps later.
It doesn't stop me wanting to dance, and it won't stop me wanting to try out some risky dance move I am trying to invent.
Sure, I can be arrogant, egotistical, jaded, judgmental, ambitious and opportunistic. But bear in mind that I'm also creative. I'm unflinching. I am not easily surprised. As much as I crave attention, I also pay attention.
And that I am aware that I am most of all unique, and like any snowflake I am mortal and doomed to melt away into nothing some day soon, just like so many people I know who have already discovered what lies beyond The Grey Door.
And if you all knew this simple fact, could face the simple fact that we're all dying and we've got to stop chasing after life and just live, you'd all be creative and unique, too. Even if it does mean getting on people's nerves.
When I write something, this is how I feel inside about the thing I am writing about. If someone is behaving like a dick, I tell people on my blog that such-and-such is behaving like a dick. If I believe that a whole country full of people are behaving like dicks, I state this and all.
Actually, there are days when I think to myself "To blazes with evolution. Fuck the whole damned human species to extinction!" - and those are the days that I get trolled by people who seem to take it personally that I just wished that all their dreams should come undone.
But I have never been afraid to put something up on my blog for fear that it would cost me my f'list. Otherwise, I'd have nothing to say - and my f'list would just dissolve anyway.
I have a friends only filter on my blog. In fact, I have several different filters, for various circles. For a year, I can't recall actually writing anything on or in any of those filters. Everything that I have written has been out here in the open for all of you to see. And I mean all of you. Not necessarily because I want you all to see it, but sometimes because I want myself to remember it later on.
I'm sorry if some of the words I have said in my previous post have pissed some of you off, and I would be really sorry if you unfriended me as a result. But you'll note that the very worst things you have said to me, the harshest criticisms, I have left on my blog for me to come back to, when I get too full of myself.
I don't shy away from my own words. Or those of others. I'm only trying to figure out where I put a foot wrong, so I can refine my dance steps later.
It doesn't stop me wanting to dance, and it won't stop me wanting to try out some risky dance move I am trying to invent.
Sure, I can be arrogant, egotistical, jaded, judgmental, ambitious and opportunistic. But bear in mind that I'm also creative. I'm unflinching. I am not easily surprised. As much as I crave attention, I also pay attention.
And that I am aware that I am most of all unique, and like any snowflake I am mortal and doomed to melt away into nothing some day soon, just like so many people I know who have already discovered what lies beyond The Grey Door.
And if you all knew this simple fact, could face the simple fact that we're all dying and we've got to stop chasing after life and just live, you'd all be creative and unique, too. Even if it does mean getting on people's nerves.
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Date: 2009-09-29 08:20 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-09-29 08:55 am (UTC)The question (to my mind) is how do you feel about the above statement?
I know there are elements of my own personality I don't like (I tend to be confrontation adverse, to the point of being passive aggressive rather than just saying something bothers me), but I'm aware I don't like them, and am trying to change my behaviour.
If you don't mind these traits in yourself then that's your choice, but I must admit I find the combination of all of the above unappealing. But either way, don't be offended when people call you on them.
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Date: 2009-09-29 08:58 am (UTC)f-lock or not f-lock, just keep irritating people.
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Date: 2009-09-29 11:21 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-09-29 12:03 pm (UTC)I have annoyed more than enough 'friends' recently with comments, some who I knew in RL. I say knew because now those friends are not friends as they basically have taken offence to the fact that I found their snubbing of my wedding and my wife's birthday.
THe basic problem is that some say that others should chill out. These same people then have opinions. And then when anyone has opinions they find offensive they get all uptight about it, all the while saying that none of this would have happened if you were more chilled out and hadn't made such comments. Don't you just love double standards!
Personally, I wasn't pissed.
Date: 2009-09-29 02:23 pm (UTC)Honestly, I also don't have time to stop and look at every flower (as much as I'd like to). I'm swamped and on the verge of a serious emotional breakdown what with school, trying to get into grad school, Jeff, Katie being sick to the point that I probably will have to have her put down by the end of the week (yes, still), and a roommate that isn't used to my personality enough by now that it becomes argumentative (with really bad timing). So, I don't exactly have the mental/emotional capacity right now to give one good shit most of the time about humanity (most of them, I just want out of my way or dead right now), and unfortunately very little time for nature. No matter how much I know I probably would benefit from it. I'm physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted and I don't see it getting better any time soon.
So, whether you lock your posts or not is up to you. I have various filters that I do use when I feel the need to and some that I set up to rant about particular things or people. I had to even do a filter for bitching about science because one person (not you) got so offended at something I ranted about once that she snarked and became more sarcastic than I wanted to deal with. So rather than start freakin' flame wars in my LJ, I have filters and I rant. Either way, it's up to you. Just know that if you don't f'list filter at times, you will get people who are offended by what you write and who will call you on it. As long as you can take it, keep dishing it out. If people unfriend you because they don't like something you've written, they weren't very good friends to begin with.
And btw, I have found that passive aggressive people are the ones who get the most offended by stuff like this. I'm finding more and more that I have less and less time for passive aggressive people. Most of the drama in my life has been caused by passive aggressive people.